Sorry I just miss you so much.

Dear Kanzaki,

I know I miss you so much.

I need to control myself every second

to stop thinking about you,

to stop the desire of wanting to sms you.

I wish you are beside me all the time.

When the time I awake from my sleep,

the first thing I think of is YOU.

My heart always feel hot and uneasy nowadays.

I am trying hard not to show that I am missing you.

I am trying to control that feeling,

which make me feel so miserably.

Sorry. I just miss you too much.

I am always looking forward for our meet.

I always wish I could see you again.

As long as you are beside me,

I feel warm and happy.

Even though I try hard not to over happy all the time.

But. I wish you could sense it.

I wish you can hold my hand.

I am always waiting for that moment.

Every time I listen to Yiruma's song,

It just make the feeling of missing you

getting worse and worse.

Sorry, I just miss you too much.

Regards,

katy

Sorry I just miss you so much.

Perfect? I Am Not...

Dear Kanzaki,

Just get too bored.

And thinking of my lovely blog.

I am suck.

Assignments are waiting for me.

I hate them.

But they are just hating me as well.

Give me some time.

I think I will love you too.

Just give me some time.

Thank you.

Please don't give me a damn so early.

Or else I will get fucked up.

I am trying to make it,

but will always out of my expectation.

I lose in the end.

I am just a fucked up loser.

I am just not that good.

I am not perfect.

My little heart feel pain.

I wish there is a turning back.

Or anything that can give me some warm.

Or comfort.

I hate tears.

That is why I will keep them in heart.

Without letting anyone know about it.

I prefer to suffer it on my own.

As there is my own business.

I need to be strong.

And I know I can make it in the end.

I know I still can withstand it.

I just don't wanna give up too early.

Though my heart is nearly breaking.

I try to be better.

So just give me some time.

Fail is not the end.

The end is death.

If you died, you are over.

I ever went through it.

So fail is still not the end.

Cheer up babe.

Take care babe.

Regards,

katy

Perfect? I Am Not...